I know hardly anyone comes here to read my blog now, cause i've abandoned it for so so long, but i think maybe that's a good thing. Service today was..I don't know. It made me realise how old I am though i'm only 15 now, but still, feels as if I'm going to uni soon, and i seriously seriously dread that. And i'm silly enough to come online today to look for universities on the net? After service, ____ and I just talked for a while about how time passes so fast, that O's is next year already, soon we'll be in JC, then go oversesas to Uni, then get married, and the whole list goes on. And then it surprised when she broke down and just cried, she said she wasn't prepared for the future; we've to survive on our own. I wanted to cry so badly too, cause I know I'm not ready, and yet time doesn't want to stop, the clock just keeps ticking and ticking and it gets rather irritating to know that each year passes so quickly. Soon we're going to step down and the next Exco is already taking over in April, and then Bdiv is going to be over like even earlier than that? It's so fast, too fast D: And then now I'm cracking my head as to whether I should go to VJ to continue hockey, cause of my stupid dream of playing in youth olympics, but yet sometimes it gets so frustrating. I shan't go into details anymore. New Year resolution for 2008:

1) I will continue my walk with God and never neglect Him no matter how busy I am. -I'm sorry I failed to do so Lord.
2) I will read more books :) at least I’ll try my best to. -I read 4 books during the year end hols. Accomplished.
3) I will commit myself whole-heartedly to all my commitments -Accomplished
4) I will save more money and not spend unnecessarily, cause I need to save for a better violin :D -sort of accomplished
5) I will practice my violin regularly and learn canon in d (: -I mastered Canon in D
6) I will train very hard and will never give up no matter how tough training is, and get into the finals for nationals. -I did train hard and didn't give up.
7) I will study very very hard, and get good grades (: -forget about this one.
8) I will learn how to be a better sister to my brother, a better leader to my team, and to be a better friend. -maybe? i dont know.
9) I will train my stamina and never lag behind during warm-ups! -Accomplished
10) I will do my bible study homework daily, and go for every bible study. -There was hardly bible study this year, so yepps.
11) I will grow in heart and not in height! -You decide.

Haven't thought of 2009 New Year Resolutions yet, but I will make a list soon. Another time then.

Packing this suitcase of memories

Honestly, I feel like crap now. I don't know why, don't ask me why.
Why am I listening to music, I don't know why D: It's not making me feel any better D:
And I feel like just breaking down now.

Someday We'll Know

haha i finally am willing to blog already :D
I'm so sorry I've been really lazy to blog for the past few days D:
anw, training has been really tough lately and all and sometimes I just have
the feeling of giving up, and I'm sure many of you are feeling that way
now, but I just want you all to know that all these hard work will be worth it, so hang in there and don't give up just yet! Have been going out quite a few times lately, haha buying the seniors' farewell stuff for the hockey chalet and also doing holiday homework with friends :/ it's really fun though! haha half work, half play :D HAHA. went to esther's house on Friday, and i managed to do some Amath! then we watched Poseidon with her sister, but I fell asleep in the middle of the show cause I was too tired D: EH it only happened this year okay! that I started sleeping in the middle of movies. first was during Wall-e! HAHA when I dreamt of having exco meeting, and then the next thing i knew when i woke up, the movie already ended! So i paid 8 bucks for aircon -.-

This morning Joey and Vanessa came over to my house to do some work. we all overslept HAHA. Hahaha i did A-math again, not that productive though, but I finished half of that chapter of homework :D at least got improvement :D HAHA then we went to order pizza and watched 27 dresses. HAHA it's a really nice show :D hahahah i think malcolm is really nice. anw, training's early tmr, so that means i have to wake up early, and it's 12.30 already D: oh oh and i forgot to say that lee ah buh has officially made a facebook for me hahaha so you guys can check it out if you want, but it's nothing much. November's going to be a really hectic month for me :/ oh wells. I shall end off with this verse(:

The Lord is my sheperd, I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures.
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Psalm 23:1-6

Life is like a highway

These few days have kept me thinking alot. Had been having my times of laughs, my times of cries, and my times of confusion. hahaha i know, it's kind of complicated, but well. First, we went to celebrate Berry Khoo's birthday yesterday :D was supposed to be a team thing, but only Esme, Esther, Wan Min, the birthday girl and I could make it. hahaha but it was still fun! haha we first played bowling and we had 2 lanes. Esther and Esme on one lane, and Amanda, Wan Min and I on the other :D hahaha and the first ball that esme threw, HAHA it went onto our lane and wanmin got a ZERO HAHAHAHA OMG it was so so funny! and then she insisted that she threw one ball for esme HAHA. okay okay so we played 2 games of bowling (it was purely embarrassing) and then we went to play billard. haha a few games i think, and it was really fun :) hahaha then we couldn't sing karoke cause it was booked till 6.30, then we realised that there was only a guy inside singing by himself -.- haha so we went to play arcade instead! Berry Khoo is officially my great arcade partner :D HAHA berry khoo and I played 4 games of car racing and I keep banging at the corners! HAHA when i get my lambo next time, better not sit my car :D oh oh before that Esther, Esme and I had lunch first, then Wanmin and Berry came, haha then they had lunch. and then we sat the buggy to the bowling alley HAHA it was so cool cause I loved it when the wind blew against our faces. hahaha yepps, it was a really great day at SICC :D hahahah anw, HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY BERRY KHOO! MAY YOU STAY VERY COOL FOREVER :D HAHA and thanks for being such a great teammate and friend as well :D


On Friday, went with the India Exchange girls for shopping; haha it was quite fun (: went to taka first, and they bought like 5 Pull and Bear tees at one go without trying cause it'll waste shopping time -.- HAHA rich I tell you, they're super rich!! and then when they've shopped finished at Taka, we went over to Wisma Atria. hahaha they bought a few stuff there and then we met STLP, then walked over to Paragon to shop somemore. hahaha after that had dinner at Indochine. The food was nice, the price was very nice also -.- HAHA but we treated them :D Deb came after that, and we left for the night safari (: hahaha it was this some sort of Halloween thing, so there were like ghosts walking around the whole place :/ so this was the funny and scary part. I saw this woman in a black dress, holding a black umbrella, with black makeup under her eyes, and I looked her into her eyes cause I thought she looked kinda freaky (big mistake I made). She started waving towards me and asked me to come over to her, so I freaked out cause she started walking towards me! HAHA so i screamed and ran away! and then while running away I bumped into this red dressed ghost OMG SHE WAS FREAKY. so i screamed more and ran away :/ hahaha when we entered, we queued for this Ghost Tram instead of the normal tram, and the queue was super long! haha and while queueing, more ghosts came to scare us -.- like this butcher guy, who was holding a chicken in one hand and a knife in the other, and he was like eh sort of cutting the chicken. and he walked towards Jolin, Deb, Rubi, and I -.- AND THEN WE SCREAMED AGAIN and hid behind STLP hahaha! after that he used his knife to stroke STLP's hair HAHA farnie i tell you. yeah, the ghost tram was really scary too, cause there was this ghost which jumped onto the tram beside me, so all I could do is just scream and scream till she went away RAWR. haha it was a really great day :D

Okay now I will have to work very very hard for next year already D:

It's only just the beginning

hahaha today was very very fun :D
Woke up at 9.30 today then took 190 and then 132 to meet Esther at redhill before meeting the rest at vivo, I was late, the rest were late too! HAHA. omg some were even sleeping when I called them -.- went to play arcade first, while waiting for the rest to come, and I'm officially in love with basketball and the GoGo Balls game! HAHA. then we went to B&Js for starters, got a strawberry icecream there :D then went back to arcade to play when the rest came, HAHA and we went to play the same games again, but it was really fun! hahaha then we went to play at the red monster there, saw Crescentians! hahaha they were sec1s, and one of them recognised me, then she told her friends, and then they started screaming and ran into the toilet? D: hahaha after that had lunch at Long Johns, didn't really eat much there, hahaha cause I wasn't really hungry. Then we walked around to see what to get for our friends' birthdays, but didn't get anything in the end :/ hahaha after that it was movie time! caught eagle eyes, and it was a thriller! so half the time i was covering my face cause it was so so scary. Hahaha next goal: to be brave and watch a horror movie! haven't done that in my lifetime in the cinemas actually :/ haha after that everyone left, and me and berry khoo went into the island shop, and then we tried on this top together HAHA OMG we looked super weird in it. EH then she left to go home for dinner, so I met my parents for dinner and shopping :D hahaha went to Earle's Swensens for dinner and then shopping till 10 plus :/ they got me a gap and AX top today :D hahaha but must save up now, economy downfall already D: hahaha anw, I had a fun time today:D hahaha exams are finally over! Don't talk about A-math or physics, cause whenever people say how easy it is, it frustrates me cause I know I won't do well :/ hahaha oh wells. Tomorrow's going to be a great day again! we're going to have leadership course in the morning and then hitting the beach for council bonding :D hahaha fun fun fun :D and then study study study after that :/ alright, it's getting late now, another time then!

Smoky Mountain Memories

Sec4 farewell was yesterday, it was so sad ): Made Beaver a cert, and esther ng and e-smeling made comments about it! rawrrr HAHA. it's okay dude, I'll help you make one when your birthday comes too :D I'll miss you so so much Beaver and Paul D:

Though farewell assembly was really sad, but at least the whole event ran quite smoothly, so yepps since sec4 farewell is over now, time to really really focus on my sciences and a-math. I know i'm quite screwed for Chem already, i feel like just falling sick on that day. Gahh. This is so frustrating. And I'm quite tired too, tired of breaking down everyday, and I wonder why what you think affects me so much, so much so that you make me cry so much just at the thought of you. Anger, and frustration, it's what fills me all the time whenever I think of you. I pray I pray that I'll be able to control and endure. I hope that the meeting after exams will be alright too, I don't want this to affect me anymore.

Hahaha I'm watching Ghost Whisperer now :D and it's so scary and nice! haha I did bio earlier on, did nutrition in humans, going to do nutrition in plants and maybe transport in humans tomorrow. Need to buck up already. must jia you!

But I'll keep leanin' on my Jesus
He'll love and guide and lead us
The Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong
If I'll keep looking to the father
Keep our heads above the water
While the Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong

Like a rose

Tired tired tired. It's midnight now hahaha, but I decided to just post this :D
anw, today was quite alright, not that productive though.
Woke up at 7.30 to morning call beaver HAHA but i saw the sms that she sent, which
she said she has already woken up, so i replied her then went back to sleep hahahaha.
woke up at 9.30 then quickly do up my study plan D: HAHA then as usual, i went to
watch my wang zi bian qing wa. and i really really felt like crying cause the guy was
so sweet and romantic, but he left the girl because he know he'll be the cause of her
getting hurt by another guy. hahaha anw, had physics tuition after that, and Rebecca
stayed for a while to keep me company else I'll be alone at home :/ oh yeah, it was
really really funny during tuition, cause suddenly the toilet bowl made this weird noise
like it was flushing, then our conversation was this.
her: what's that weird noise?
me(happily said) : oh, whenever someone flushes the toilet bowl upstairs, the toilet bowl
makes that sound
her (looking at me creepily): eh so who flushed the toilet bowl?
HAHA then i looked at her and realised that we're the only ones at home, hahaha so
i grabbed my chair and slowly shifted next to her :/
hahaha after tuition, went to study bio, finished respiration, half way done with excretion.
omg i better study harder cause i'm not feeling the pressure D:
alright, that's all for today. haha i know my life's not very interesting BUT after the
exams it will be :D hahaha.